My Longing Heart

Daisy Alone

Have you been longing to see someone? I’ve craved to be face-to-face once again with my son and daughter-in-love. The endurance it takes to patiently wait for the reunion is challenging.

Since they moved out of state our visits are few throughout the year. Therefore, it’s necessary to guard my heart from becoming depressed and fixated on the life I miss out on, due to the miles that separate us. I covet the phone calls and technology that allows us to see one another. It is sufficient for a while, however, there comes a strong yearning to be in their physical presence from time to time.

As I wrote this I knew in my heart it was time to plan a visit so I did! Not because there was a special occasion to prompt me, but because I simply wanted to be with them. It was then that my guarded heart let its protection down for a moment, and involuntary tears came as my heart expressed a joy that’s difficult to explain here.

Do you know the longing I speak of?

Maybe for you it’s to:

  • Reunite with a loved one in heaven.
  • Restore a relationship that once thrived.
  • Visit with family you have not seen in years.
  • Be rejoined with your sweetheart who has been away.

Whatever the longing looks like for you, know that you are not alone.

I’m mindful that while we may find comfort, fulfillment, and relief gathering with precious ones, our soul’s deepest longing is only quenched when we are in fellowship with the Lord.

Do you have a deep yearning for the Lord more than you have for your loved ones?

I ask because when our souls are satisfied in the Lord, we are able to bear the burden that comes with separation from treasured ones.

When we seek the Lord with all our hearts He will be found (Jeremiah 29:13-14), and He will give us the desires of our hearts (Psalms 37:4).

As we struggle with missing someone we love, God says to cast our cares on Him, because He cares about us (1 Peter 5:7). He desires for you and me to go to Him so He may give us rest from the burden we carry (Matthew 28:11).

As I miss my son and daughter-in-love I can proclaim as David did in Psalms 63:3-5:

Because Your lovingkindness is better than life, my lips will praise You. So, I will bless You as long as I live; I will lift up my hands in Your name. My soul is satisfied as with marrow and fatness, and my mouth offers praises with joyful lips.

I’m able to proclaim the above because I experience the fullness of joy in His presence (Psalm 16:11).

Let’s not be so focused on missing our precious ones that we miss God in the present. Instead, recognize that God is currently with us desiring fellowship. Through that fellowship, He will strengthen us as we wait for what our hearts long for.

As our soul’s deepest longing is satisfied through our intimacy with God, our hope will be renewed and the pain that comes with the yearning will ease.

Craving to be with those I care most about is not a new ache in my heart. It is one that caused me to seek the Lord years ago in hopes to find comfort. In doing so, He has been faithful to meet with me, love me, and minister to me through His word and presence. I desire this for you, as well.

While there are some that do not know if a reunion will ever be possible, I know that God is able to place a healing salve on your broken heart, as He has mine. I invite you to be willing to be vulnerable before the Lord. Allow Him space He desires to meet your deepest longing. Spend time with Him today and be strengthened.




Letting Go To Embrace The New

We raise our children with care, love, protection and prayers for a prosperous future.  We bandaged skinned knees, wiped runny noses, and kissed away hurts and tears.  We looked in on them at night as they slept peacefully while quietly considering what they may become when they grew older. We hoped to always be a part of their lives.  We disciplined them to teach them right from wrong. We held them tightly to remind them they were loved.  We taught them to brush their teeth, comb their hair, and give them tickles to know we care.  We labored over homework wishing we had the answers and stayed up late working through astronomy, biology and English projects.  The walls in their rooms were filled with pictures that displayed a little of who they were.  Early on, it was the treasured hand paintings, but as their personalities and interest changed over the years so did the pictures.

When our oldest son left home, he left behind that “one picture” that has been his from the earliest of days. It was the one picture that said to me as his mom, “I’m still your little boy.” What a treasure!

Picture of boy

I sit here in tears as I think of how he has grown into a man, and I am beaming with pride! It’s been a few months since he graduated from college, married (she is an answer to my prayers) and moved some 1,600 miles away for training in his new job, but he wasn’t “quite” yet gone. The room was still set up and his things (many of them) were still in place. I gladly looked past the stack of wedding gifts piled up in my dining room and the boxes in the garage.  I rarely noticed the car parked out front or the bedroom full of his and his bride’s belongings.  During these last few months I have walked into the unoccupied bedroom and stared at the pictures on the walls that spoke of life: past, present and future.  I soaked it all in.  I would bask in the memories of the little boy who is now a grown man.

It is now time. Time for the pictures to come down. I labor to hold back the tears as I realize this season is here. It is a season to let go. It is a season to bless the next chapter that these two precious people will spread their wings as husband and wife.  What is a mom to do with empty spaces that were once filled with a sweet presence? She must choose to look inward to revisit them deep in her heart.

In these moments I must remember that God entrusted him to me, and I did the best that I could. From my many mistakes, he learned to forgive and love anyway.  Because of the many times I have prayed over him, he now knows who the Source of life is.  He knows the Lord and his heart is bent toward Him. For my son and his bride I know the Lord has plans to prosper them and not harm them so I extend my arms and open my hands to let them fly. Now they soar into the future full of hope and promises with a God that will never leave them or forsake them and is always for them.

Now I know this season may feel like an eternity but it is a short one. A new season is knocking at the door. One of new beginnings full of hope, new adventure, new memories, and new depth with the Lord. I praise God for His goodness!

Is God doing something new in your life, but you need to first release something to embrace it? It is hard but what God has that is new is good. Trust Him!